Again

I dont love you

The thought of having you to myself

Just one time

Is

Insane

Images of the things

I’d do

To you

Won’t leave my brain

Tender kisses

To deep strokes

Thoughts provoke

A side of me I pretend doesn’t exist

I hate to think like this

Longing

To feel

Hands on my breasts

Tongue on my neck

And

Mmmmmmmm

No I’m starting to sweat

Stop myself

Before I’m knocking at your door

Before my knees are planted on the floor

I’m giving you more than I expected

I know you won’t reject it

Thinking about your member

Hard

Yet you worked me tender…ly

Deep strokes

Sweat dripping

Moans

I need to hide my keys

I don’t wanna back track

But when you hit me from the back

Grabbed my neck

Hair pulling

Shit I need a drink

Let me think

NO!

Don’t think

I need to sleep

A deep sleep

Ugh don’t say deep

Now my knees are getting weak

Yea I’m weak

Weak for that ….

Mmmmmmmm

I need to get a grip on things

Control this

Get on top of it

Top?

Yea I used to ride that…

I need to STOP!

Pros

And

Cons

Eff it

For me it’ll be positive

Cause once I cum

I’m outta there

For good

Or until

My knees get weak

Or I have a flashback

Arching my back

And holding my breath

So I won’t moan

It always happens in public

When I want it the most

I just can’t control it

I find myself

In your bed

Again….

Serenade

Verse one

I sing your name

Sweet melodies

Fresh

Wet

Loving me

Change of pace

Higher pitch

Humming in your ear

Ooooooooooo

You got me

Verse two

Mmmmmmmm

Skipped

Right to the bridge

Ranges I’ve never reached

A minor stroke

I want you at the peak

Take it slow

Switch to G

Now we’re deep

Strumming just a little

Solo

Freestyle

Off the dome

Now you’re singing

I’m cuming home

Humming in your ear

Strumming from the rear

Serenade

Instrumentals play

As our tunes fade away

M.C.K

There ain’t no way in hell

I can be just friends with you

Things got out of hand

I fell

Fast

Hard

Didn’t crash

Couldn’t prevent the inevitable

The moments were incredible

What did I call you?

My Chocolate King

No one could touch you

I see you

Alone in the world

No one else is there

Background niggas didn’t compare

In a crowded room

My eyes find you

Linger there

If I had to define perfection

Id spell your name

You’re so fucked up

Yet you admit it

I love it

Top to bottom perfect

Addict

My heroine

I’m addicted

Can’t get you out of my system

I say I just want one last hit

I’m always feigning

Good things always come to an end

Feeling bad cause you let me get too deep

Bitterness starts to seep

Well

Apologizes don’t move me

So when I walk by

If I catch your eye

Act like you don’t know me

Fin

The last one hurt
But this pain is sweet 
Bitter sweet 
Even tho I can't breathe 
The realizations 
The pain I cause myself 
For a few moments of time 
Memories forever etched in my mind
I hurt so bad 
I know it won't last 
So I hurt until its my past
These moments stuck 
Replaying themselves 
Until I tuck them away on a shelf 
Memory lane 
Memories of pain 
Things I've caused
I'll live won't regret 
Just know I wanted to give you my best

5'3

WTF is wrong with me

WTF

WHAT THE FUCK

I feel sick

I'm sick

I'm twisted

Slightly masochistic

Satisfaction

Degradation

Hurting myself with hesitation

It's all so wrong

Who cares

For a while it feels right

Then I get caught up

Find myself drowning

In a bottle of brown tears

Pain on the rocks

Confronting fears

Running back to lonely

Blaming

Everyone but... hmph

Me

I'm the one harming me

Fuck it

I'm sadistic

Like I said

I'm twisted

Crazy

Psychotic

For a while I don't mind stopping

Then the urge comes back

I start feigning

For that pain again

That hate

The arguing

With myself

I'll take that painful pleasure

Before I'll be alone and well

I'll be a masochistic monster

I'll live in hell

No names

Hmmm
I dont want much
Just one bite
One night
Stand?
Maybe
Not looking for a man
Just a hand
To cup my breasts
A few rounds
Good sex
Kiss me
Lick my lips
Both sets
Drop the sweet shit
I want rough sex
Tease me
Yea
Scratch my back
Choke me a little
Slap me around
No biting or sucking
Thats not how I get down
I dont wanna remember you in the morning
I'll be gone before you're yawning
But when I get down its my name you'll be calling
For the rest of the night
Focus fuck me
Alright?
I'll go home to my man
You'll go wherever
But while we're still here
Take my body
It's a pleasure

Between

I am deep
Further than your member seeks
When you're done
I hear your foot steps on the floor
I lay in sweat
Lay in sweat thinking back
As I patiently await the next
Tearing my soul apart
Spreading my thighs
As I search a strangers eyes
No names exchanged
More than hurt
I dont realize my worth
I am a woman
So I spread these thighs
Moans
Screams
Sent sky high
Done
You still want more
Have you mesmerized
Yet you still seek the door
Satisfied
You've had my treasure
My cherry pie
The sweet warm sensation between my thighs
Door closed
Now my cries are sent sky high
Asking him why
Why dont I know my worth
I am a woman
I am deep
Further than your member reached...

Call me stupid

I'm not sure of many things but one thing I know is that we all have  
that one person that we'll do just about anything for. Not family nor  
friends that one person you love unconditionally no matter how much  
bullshit they've put you through you'll be there for them whenever  
they need you.

I had a really heated argument with a friend of mine a couple months ago  
because (as he says) I let the devil back into my life. Honestly I  
found it hard to keep him out. Mainly because he still to this day owns a piece of  
me I'll never get it back no refunds I lost my reciept I paid with  
blood sweat and tears (literally).

No matter how hard I tried I honestly couldn't let go of him. Everything that  
has happened between us which usually left me crying and him off doing  
whatever he does. I still love him my heart cried for this kid. 
My mind body and soul hate him they don't trust him its like a battle 
within and my heart always won the fight.


I tried several times to replace him with somebody else, but I never found 
anyone who excites me enough to make me stay (once but thats a different story)

I always said to myself that I would never love anyone that much. I  
always thought it was something I could control I thought I could turn  
my heart on and off. For the longest time I thought it was just lust.
I see now that I was dead wrong.

I love hate and regret EVERY moment spent with him I would fall deeper into  
a trap a black hole that I couldn't fight my way out of.

It'a funny cause I kinda feel that if I needed him he'd be or attempt  
to be there for me but never give or do more than I would if the shoe  
was on the other foot. That may make me a little stupid and believe me  
I was a little stupid but love will make you do silly things. I am only  
a woman with a heart and I knew I would get over him one day and I tried  
but I'm still weak I'm growing it just took a little time.

Here I am being a little too honest with you all once again.

my thoughts  -Chi

Who am I?

Who am I to you
An ass
Face
Tits
A waist
An object
A person
A toy
Time consumer
A midnight treat
Somethin sweet to eat
flavors dance in your tongue
Your entertainment
Using me for fun
Am I 
Cleopatra 
A goddess
Hoodrat
A Potential babymama
A bunch of drama
Who am I to you
Tell me
Cause
I'm slowly losing Chi
Trying to be
Everything you want from me
Fulfilling your needs
Who am I to you
Apparently you don't see who I am
More than a woman
More than a body
I'm a lover
Ima fighter
Winner
Provider 
Mother 
Daughter
Your soulmate
Your escape
Shoulder cry on
The only one you rely on
I'm more than you see
I'm more then you expect me to be
But if all you want is sex from me
I'll go
I wanna be free
I just wanna be me
Be Chi

Time

Time heals all wounds
These may never close
Heart aches for a love
A love never known
My mind tells me to move on
To what?
I see nothing
But everything all at once
I tell myself that I don't want you
I'll lie until it's true
You probably don't understand
My background is shaky
Past is a blur
Just know it still hurts
Gave my all to a man
Who couldve cared less
About me or my feelings
So afraid to care for you
To give you apart of me
I only let him see
Someday I'll allow
My heart to be free
Just not now
As the days pass
The fire dies
Your intrest fades
And heres just another bitter woman
Who won't allow herself to embrace

Love she deserves 
Loves tender embrace

Karma

Cant be true
Your lips are moving
But I cant hear you
Voices screaming
"Liar he's such a effin' liar"
Killing me inside
I should just follow my first mind
Walk away
The look in your eyes
It makes me stay
Listen
Believe
Everything you say
Lies
But those lips
Those eyes
They get me everytime
I can't say it was all you
Im a woman
We can be quite stupid
Love had me blinded
Now every time you speak
Im reminded of the
Lies
Deceit
Tears
Pain
Time has passed
Im not the same
You're still lying
The dreams you're selling
Im not buying
They always cost me too much
Im thinking back
I was in love
You were in lust
Now the tables have turned
You want to forget the past
You want my trust

Things have changed
It's time to play my games.

New Orleans New Orleans

Raggedy Streets

Fake hoes

Downtown

Uptown

Crooked Cops

Gun shots

*POP POP*

Day and night

But look on the bright

side

Im alive

No complainin

Niggas living shameless

Only concern leaving a nigga brainless

Bullshit seems endless

But I aint complainin

My heart

My home

Some shit you gotta deal with

You aint N.O

So you prolly dont understand it

Lame niggas running round screaming

Suuuuuuuuwoooooooooo

Skinny Jeans and Vans

Baby faggots

Maggots on a nigga who could give a fuck less if they live or die

He making money

Fuck you doing

Looking like a fool

Repping a clique that aint doing shit for you

But lets get off the subliminal Wayne shit

I was never on Wayne TIP

New Orleans New Orleans

Where Forth Art Thou

N.O

Shit you seem a million miles away

I dream bout you every day

I need a lil taste of home

Something from the east

Couple shots to the dome

PATRON !!!

Night life

Off the chain

Pizza stop

Sports Vue

FEMA Fridays

From the hookah

to Caesars

ITS GOES DOWN AT THE DUCK OFF!!!

Cheesy hoes telling niggas FUCK OFF !!!

But my city aint all negative

Thats just how some choose to live

My people show love

All day

Yea these fools down with gun play

Imma keep it 100% never nothing less

But it's all about respect

Get what you give

No matter where Im at

Imma always be N.O

East Beast baby

Im in KY but Im not with this country shit

9wd Chi over & out Biiiiiicth