Between

I am deep
Further than your member seeks
When you're done
I hear your foot steps on the floor
I lay in sweat
Lay in sweat thinking back
As I patiently await the next
Tearing my soul apart
Spreading my thighs
As I search a strangers eyes
No names exchanged
More than hurt
I dont realize my worth
I am a woman
So I spread these thighs
Moans
Screams
Sent sky high
Done
You still want more
Have you mesmerized
Yet you still seek the door
Satisfied
You've had my treasure
My cherry pie
The sweet warm sensation between my thighs
Door closed
Now my cries are sent sky high
Asking him why
Why dont I know my worth
I am a woman
I am deep
Further than your member reached...

Call me stupid

I'm not sure of many things but one thing I know is that we all have  
that one person that we'll do just about anything for. Not family nor  
friends that one person you love unconditionally no matter how much  
bullshit they've put you through you'll be there for them whenever  
they need you.

I had a really heated argument with a friend of mine a couple months ago  
because (as he says) I let the devil back into my life. Honestly I  
found it hard to keep him out. Mainly because he still to this day owns a piece of  
me I'll never get it back no refunds I lost my reciept I paid with  
blood sweat and tears (literally).

No matter how hard I tried I honestly couldn't let go of him. Everything that  
has happened between us which usually left me crying and him off doing  
whatever he does. I still love him my heart cried for this kid. 
My mind body and soul hate him they don't trust him its like a battle 
within and my heart always won the fight.


I tried several times to replace him with somebody else, but I never found 
anyone who excites me enough to make me stay (once but thats a different story)

I always said to myself that I would never love anyone that much. I  
always thought it was something I could control I thought I could turn  
my heart on and off. For the longest time I thought it was just lust.
I see now that I was dead wrong.

I love hate and regret EVERY moment spent with him I would fall deeper into  
a trap a black hole that I couldn't fight my way out of.

It'a funny cause I kinda feel that if I needed him he'd be or attempt  
to be there for me but never give or do more than I would if the shoe  
was on the other foot. That may make me a little stupid and believe me  
I was a little stupid but love will make you do silly things. I am only  
a woman with a heart and I knew I would get over him one day and I tried  
but I'm still weak I'm growing it just took a little time.

Here I am being a little too honest with you all once again.

my thoughts  -Chi

Who am I?

Who am I to you
An ass
Face
Tits
A waist
An object
A person
A toy
Time consumer
A midnight treat
Somethin sweet to eat
flavors dance in your tongue
Your entertainment
Using me for fun
Am I 
Cleopatra 
A goddess
Hoodrat
A Potential babymama
A bunch of drama
Who am I to you
Tell me
Cause
I'm slowly losing Chi
Trying to be
Everything you want from me
Fulfilling your needs
Who am I to you
Apparently you don't see who I am
More than a woman
More than a body
I'm a lover
Ima fighter
Winner
Provider 
Mother 
Daughter
Your soulmate
Your escape
Shoulder cry on
The only one you rely on
I'm more than you see
I'm more then you expect me to be
But if all you want is sex from me
I'll go
I wanna be free
I just wanna be me
Be Chi

Time

Time heals all wounds
These may never close
Heart aches for a love
A love never known
My mind tells me to move on
To what?
I see nothing
But everything all at once
I tell myself that I don't want you
I'll lie until it's true
You probably don't understand
My background is shaky
Past is a blur
Just know it still hurts
Gave my all to a man
Who couldve cared less
About me or my feelings
So afraid to care for you
To give you apart of me
I only let him see
Someday I'll allow
My heart to be free
Just not now
As the days pass
The fire dies
Your intrest fades
And heres just another bitter woman
Who won't allow herself to embrace

Love she deserves 
Loves tender embrace

Karma

Cant be true
Your lips are moving
But I cant hear you
Voices screaming
"Liar he's such a effin' liar"
Killing me inside
I should just follow my first mind
Walk away
The look in your eyes
It makes me stay
Listen
Believe
Everything you say
Lies
But those lips
Those eyes
They get me everytime
I can't say it was all you
Im a woman
We can be quite stupid
Love had me blinded
Now every time you speak
Im reminded of the
Lies
Deceit
Tears
Pain
Time has passed
Im not the same
You're still lying
The dreams you're selling
Im not buying
They always cost me too much
Im thinking back
I was in love
You were in lust
Now the tables have turned
You want to forget the past
You want my trust

Things have changed
It's time to play my games.

New Orleans New Orleans

Raggedy Streets

Fake hoes

Downtown

Uptown

Crooked Cops

Gun shots

*POP POP*

Day and night

But look on the bright

side

Im alive

No complainin

Niggas living shameless

Only concern leaving a nigga brainless

Bullshit seems endless

But I aint complainin

My heart

My home

Some shit you gotta deal with

You aint N.O

So you prolly dont understand it

Lame niggas running round screaming

Suuuuuuuuwoooooooooo

Skinny Jeans and Vans

Baby faggots

Maggots on a nigga who could give a fuck less if they live or die

He making money

Fuck you doing

Looking like a fool

Repping a clique that aint doing shit for you

But lets get off the subliminal Wayne shit

I was never on Wayne TIP

New Orleans New Orleans

Where Forth Art Thou

N.O

Shit you seem a million miles away

I dream bout you every day

I need a lil taste of home

Something from the east

Couple shots to the dome

PATRON !!!

Night life

Off the chain

Pizza stop

Sports Vue

FEMA Fridays

From the hookah

to Caesars

ITS GOES DOWN AT THE DUCK OFF!!!

Cheesy hoes telling niggas FUCK OFF !!!

But my city aint all negative

Thats just how some choose to live

My people show love

All day

Yea these fools down with gun play

Imma keep it 100% never nothing less

But it's all about respect

Get what you give

No matter where Im at

Imma always be N.O

East Beast baby

Im in KY but Im not with this country shit

9wd Chi over & out Biiiiiicth

Weak

Here's the issue
We tripping
Headed on the right path
Then we start slipping
Back to the beginning
I thought we'd learned from our
Mistakes
I thought we were taking a
Break
We're right back at square 1
I'll admit it was a little crazy
His actions they persuade me
It's like she's always in control
I couldn't say NO
In our right state of mind

I refused to hit the door
Now my panties

Shirt 

Bra 

Pants 

On the floor
She plays this like a game
To see how far I'll go
The things I might do
She already knows
Now im sitting here fighting myself
Cause I know
I've slipped again
I try to stop her but Ill never win
She's always there 
Looking for attention
On a mission for pleasure
My own little Devil
Hell in some Cheekies 
She coaxes my mind
Telling me lies
I'm constantly
Fighting this other person inside
The bitch just won't die
She goes by the name of Naomi
Between my thighs is where she resides