Serenade

Verse one

I sing your name

Sweet melodies

Fresh

Wet

Loving me

Change of pace

Higher pitch

Humming in your ear

Ooooooooooo

You got me

Verse two

Mmmmmmmm

Skipped

Right to the bridge

Ranges I’ve never reached

A minor stroke

I want you at the peak

Take it slow

Switch to G

Now we’re deep

Strumming just a little

Solo

Freestyle

Off the dome

Now you’re singing

I’m cuming home

Humming in your ear

Strumming from the rear

Serenade

Instrumentals play

As our tunes fade away

M.C.K

There ain’t no way in hell

I can be just friends with you

Things got out of hand

I fell

Fast

Hard

Didn’t crash

Couldn’t prevent the inevitable

The moments were incredible

What did I call you?

My Chocolate King

No one could touch you

I see you

Alone in the world

No one else is there

Background niggas didn’t compare

In a crowded room

My eyes find you

Linger there

If I had to define perfection

Id spell your name

You’re so fucked up

Yet you admit it

I love it

Top to bottom perfect

Addict

My heroine

I’m addicted

Can’t get you out of my system

I say I just want one last hit

I’m always feigning

Good things always come to an end

Feeling bad cause you let me get too deep

Bitterness starts to seep

Well

Apologizes don’t move me

So when I walk by

If I catch your eye

Act like you don’t know me

Fin

The last one hurt
But this pain is sweet 
Bitter sweet 
Even tho I can't breathe 
The realizations 
The pain I cause myself 
For a few moments of time 
Memories forever etched in my mind
I hurt so bad 
I know it won't last 
So I hurt until its my past
These moments stuck 
Replaying themselves 
Until I tuck them away on a shelf 
Memory lane 
Memories of pain 
Things I've caused
I'll live won't regret 
Just know I wanted to give you my best

5'3

WTF is wrong with me

WTF

WHAT THE FUCK

I feel sick

I'm sick

I'm twisted

Slightly masochistic

Satisfaction

Degradation

Hurting myself with hesitation

It's all so wrong

Who cares

For a while it feels right

Then I get caught up

Find myself drowning

In a bottle of brown tears

Pain on the rocks

Confronting fears

Running back to lonely

Blaming

Everyone but... hmph

Me

I'm the one harming me

Fuck it

I'm sadistic

Like I said

I'm twisted

Crazy

Psychotic

For a while I don't mind stopping

Then the urge comes back

I start feigning

For that pain again

That hate

The arguing

With myself

I'll take that painful pleasure

Before I'll be alone and well

I'll be a masochistic monster

I'll live in hell

No names

Hmmm
I dont want much
Just one bite
One night
Stand?
Maybe
Not looking for a man
Just a hand
To cup my breasts
A few rounds
Good sex
Kiss me
Lick my lips
Both sets
Drop the sweet shit
I want rough sex
Tease me
Yea
Scratch my back
Choke me a little
Slap me around
No biting or sucking
Thats not how I get down
I dont wanna remember you in the morning
I'll be gone before you're yawning
But when I get down its my name you'll be calling
For the rest of the night
Focus fuck me
Alright?
I'll go home to my man
You'll go wherever
But while we're still here
Take my body
It's a pleasure

Between

I am deep
Further than your member seeks
When you're done
I hear your foot steps on the floor
I lay in sweat
Lay in sweat thinking back
As I patiently await the next
Tearing my soul apart
Spreading my thighs
As I search a strangers eyes
No names exchanged
More than hurt
I dont realize my worth
I am a woman
So I spread these thighs
Moans
Screams
Sent sky high
Done
You still want more
Have you mesmerized
Yet you still seek the door
Satisfied
You've had my treasure
My cherry pie
The sweet warm sensation between my thighs
Door closed
Now my cries are sent sky high
Asking him why
Why dont I know my worth
I am a woman
I am deep
Further than your member reached...

Call me stupid

I'm not sure of many things but one thing I know is that we all have  
that one person that we'll do just about anything for. Not family nor  
friends that one person you love unconditionally no matter how much  
bullshit they've put you through you'll be there for them whenever  
they need you.

I had a really heated argument with a friend of mine a couple months ago  
because (as he says) I let the devil back into my life. Honestly I  
found it hard to keep him out. Mainly because he still to this day owns a piece of  
me I'll never get it back no refunds I lost my reciept I paid with  
blood sweat and tears (literally).

No matter how hard I tried I honestly couldn't let go of him. Everything that  
has happened between us which usually left me crying and him off doing  
whatever he does. I still love him my heart cried for this kid. 
My mind body and soul hate him they don't trust him its like a battle 
within and my heart always won the fight.


I tried several times to replace him with somebody else, but I never found 
anyone who excites me enough to make me stay (once but thats a different story)

I always said to myself that I would never love anyone that much. I  
always thought it was something I could control I thought I could turn  
my heart on and off. For the longest time I thought it was just lust.
I see now that I was dead wrong.

I love hate and regret EVERY moment spent with him I would fall deeper into  
a trap a black hole that I couldn't fight my way out of.

It'a funny cause I kinda feel that if I needed him he'd be or attempt  
to be there for me but never give or do more than I would if the shoe  
was on the other foot. That may make me a little stupid and believe me  
I was a little stupid but love will make you do silly things. I am only  
a woman with a heart and I knew I would get over him one day and I tried  
but I'm still weak I'm growing it just took a little time.

Here I am being a little too honest with you all once again.

my thoughts  -Chi