Naked

Should be smooth.

A free feeling.

Fresh.

Shame should be absent as garments fall to the floor.

No need to hide.

No complications.

With you I should be myself.

Naked shouldn't be this bad.

Who wants to be vulnerable?

The truth.

I am you.

We are one.

Will you still love me.

If I confess everything will you still love me?

If I show you everything will you.

still see the beauty in me?

The beautiful creation that is me?

I'm only human this you know.

My naked body is covered with marks and bruises.

Pain

Hurt

Regret

Mistakes

If I strip down and show you it all.

The shame from the past.

The insecurity that is the present.

The uncertainty in my future.

Will you guide me?

Hold my hand.

Stand beside me.

Guard me when stones are thrown.

Carry me when I'm weak

Be what I need.

Fulfill your promises.

Naked beyond the physical.

Bare my mental and spiritual skin.

Will you lay with me?

Cherish these moments.

Admire the knowledge and strength in this skin.

If I get naked for you.

I ask you not to judge.

Just listen.

Tripping

The smell of your skin lingers

Is it reality

Or is it a fantasy in my head

Your scent tucked tight like the sheets on my bed

I haven’t touched you in a minute

The last time I won’t forget

I can’t get a grip

Let this shit ride

I keep the thoughts of you alive

Pity this fool

Fool who’s so caught up on you

I don’t wanna be happy

So…..

I make everything blue

I can’t have you but I want you

I’m a fool for you such a fool for you

I bought your cologne just to spray it in the air

I spray it in my hair

Just to have you on my pillow

I sleep in your boxers and a tee just to feel you on me

Your head on my lap as I rub your back

Dream of you at night your voice in my ear in my mind everywhere

I’m so gone

No coming back

In this alternate reality

You’re mine

The fairy tale from hell

Cause when I wake up reaching for you

You’re not there and I realize its a dream

Roll over close my eyes and picture you again

Letter to my nonexistent King

I plan my future around you
My dreams include you
The one thing I may never have
I'd unlawfully kill for
Dont think Im crazy
Its nothing like that baby
No Im not obsessed
I havent even met you yet
Yet your voice excites me
You speak
Venus flower trapped
Yours words bite me
Inviting
Pleasurable bruises
Cut deep
Your intellect
Yes!
Style of dress
I could care less
Its a factor
Your mental and spiritual being is what really matters
Ambitious
Respectful
Educated black man
Rare breed
I'll take the lead and get down on my knee
I want to...
hmmm
Marry you
Before another woman gets a chance
White dress
First dance
Slow
Sweet
I'll just fantasize about you until the day we meet

Gravity

Cant keep up

Wont let go

Old hurt

An awkward pain

Fellings expressed

Once the words leave

Shame crowds my brain

Better judgement 

Just leave 

No goobyes

Grab your heart 

Go

Jump the door

Feet wont move

Cant desert me

Wont leave a piece of me

Cant have it back

I cant go

Staying only turns me cold

Fighting myself 

Hating me 

I feel so weak

Try to stand on my own feet

On my knees 

I plead

I always get the best of me

Cant  be my own saviour 

Waiting for strength

Praying for the end

Near or far

Lord knows this is hard

I dont want to be where you are 

Leaving brings scars

Youre embedded in whats left of my heart

Remnants of a love that was doomed from the start

Again

I dont love you

The thought of having you to myself

Just one time

Is

Insane

Images of the things

I’d do

To you

Won’t leave my brain

Tender kisses

To deep strokes

Thoughts provoke

A side of me I pretend doesn’t exist

I hate to think like this

Longing

To feel

Hands on my breasts

Tongue on my neck

And

Mmmmmmmm

No I’m starting to sweat

Stop myself

Before I’m knocking at your door

Before my knees are planted on the floor

I’m giving you more than I expected

I know you won’t reject it

Thinking about your member

Hard

Yet you worked me tender…ly

Deep strokes

Sweat dripping

Moans

I need to hide my keys

I don’t wanna back track

But when you hit me from the back

Grabbed my neck

Hair pulling

Shit I need a drink

Let me think

NO!

Don’t think

I need to sleep

A deep sleep

Ugh don’t say deep

Now my knees are getting weak

Yea I’m weak

Weak for that ….

Mmmmmmmm

I need to get a grip on things

Control this

Get on top of it

Top?

Yea I used to ride that…

I need to STOP!

Pros

And

Cons

Eff it

For me it’ll be positive

Cause once I cum

I’m outta there

For good

Or until

My knees get weak

Or I have a flashback

Arching my back

And holding my breath

So I won’t moan

It always happens in public

When I want it the most

I just can’t control it

I find myself

In your bed

Again….

Serenade

Verse one

I sing your name

Sweet melodies

Fresh

Wet

Loving me

Change of pace

Higher pitch

Humming in your ear

Ooooooooooo

You got me

Verse two

Mmmmmmmm

Skipped

Right to the bridge

Ranges I’ve never reached

A minor stroke

I want you at the peak

Take it slow

Switch to G

Now we’re deep

Strumming just a little

Solo

Freestyle

Off the dome

Now you’re singing

I’m cuming home

Humming in your ear

Strumming from the rear

Serenade

Instrumentals play

As our tunes fade away

M.C.K

There ain’t no way in hell

I can be just friends with you

Things got out of hand

I fell

Fast

Hard

Didn’t crash

Couldn’t prevent the inevitable

The moments were incredible

What did I call you?

My Chocolate King

No one could touch you

I see you

Alone in the world

No one else is there

Background niggas didn’t compare

In a crowded room

My eyes find you

Linger there

If I had to define perfection

Id spell your name

You’re so fucked up

Yet you admit it

I love it

Top to bottom perfect

Addict

My heroine

I’m addicted

Can’t get you out of my system

I say I just want one last hit

I’m always feigning

Good things always come to an end

Feeling bad cause you let me get too deep

Bitterness starts to seep

Well

Apologizes don’t move me

So when I walk by

If I catch your eye

Act like you don’t know me