Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Kill me now.. I'm single


Is being single really as bad as we think it is?

Is it really the flesh eating bacterial disease we make it out to be?


I've been single for the greater half of 2 years.. Can't say that I've enjoyed the status each day but I'm used to it.. Ive had enough non-relationship issues in the last 2 years to last a lifetime..


Do I get lonely? HELL YES


I can't even pretend like I wouldn't rather call "my man" to go have a drink instead of my BFF crossing my fingers praying he doesn't have plans already.. I'd much rather hold a conversation over dinner instead of twitpic'n it and talking about it with my followers.. I sure as hell get tired of reading a book on the streetcar instead of talking to someone who'll get my weak dry corny ass jokes.. 

You know how bad I want to lay in bed after sex and kiss my mans back so he'll know it's time for round 3 or 12 (who's keeping count?) .. I'm always in the mall and I often find myself in Macy's men's dept. saying "He'd look good in that" or "He might like those shoes" who's he tho? Maybe I'm delusional and the made up man Charles who lives in my head is the one I want to shop for.. 


Aside from the occasional delusions my single life isn't all bad.. I can do what I please whenever I please.. I can flirt with whoever I like.. It def doesn't beat having that special someone to be yourself with but it's not the end of the world either.. Yes you're probably sleeping alone on a cold Cali king Vera Wang pillow top mattress (sigh) but its not all bad 


This is the time to discover yourself.. It's sounds cliché but its true.. Prepare yourself for your life.. Go out meet people who will help to advance your life/career.. Have fun.. Be young.. Just live!! Being single wont kill you.. Use this time to get ready for whoever you end up with.. Stop looking for a relationship and let it happen.. 


Will I be saying the same thing in 5 1/2 years when I'm 3_ and I want kids plus a marriage? I doubt it but its fine for me now..