Thursday, June 28, 2012

Can You Handle It?




If I opened up
Let you creep in
Gave you the chance to feel me
Get as deep as you can
As far as I allow
Imagine how amazing that could be
Coax the inside
I promise not to bite
Pain turns to pleasure
As we explore each other
Can I go there with you?
Can I give it to you?
Teach you…
Can I learn you?
Every inch
Earn the pleasure…
Like my favorite book
Turn your pages til I find your spot
The climax
No turning back
When things start getting hot
I won’t beg you to stop
Too much is never enough
Can I be sure you won’t use my secrets against me?
These things you’ll discover
I’ve never shared with another
Before you enter the darkest depths of this woman
Can you handle it if I opened up and let you creep in?

Impossible


Am I the one chasing now?
Always thought I was waiting…
Watching you pace
Mind flooded with the possibility of our love affair ending
I can’t read your mind
Try to catch your eye
Search your face for a sign
This isn’t easy
You make things so hard
How can I love you
When you keep up your guard
You can’t keep treating me this way
Locking me out when we get too close
I just got something on my mind
I’m sick of being treated like the enemy all the time
Like I’m forcing you to love me
I’m just waiting for my time
If you don’t know or hell if you won’t admit what you’re feeling
Let me know I’ll walk away
Just don’t hide the truth from me
I don’t know what hurts you
I just want to make it right
Be the one you need in your life
Make the impossible possible
Let me in
If only for one night

Fill Me


I’m lost
The tunnel is dark
The end is before me
I hear my screams
I pray as I drop to my knees
I need you
Be with me
Hold my hand
Guide me
Clarity and peace are not enough
I need you
Be with me
I’m begging and pleading
I’m losing me
Giving up all hope
Forgetting who you want me to be
Choosing hell over my destiny
Demons fill me breaking my spirit
Yet your light is still here God
It’s burning in my soul
I can feel it
Stay with me
Be my eyes when I cannot see
My strength when I get too weak
My arms when I cannot reach
My voice when I can’t speak
Fight these demons
I rebuke the…
Hold my hand guide me
Believe me when I say
You are my everything
This road to salvation I long and hard
For you I am willing to take it
Fill me Lord
With you I can make it

Selfish


Sorry I had to leave
Can’t promise I’ll come back
I know it’s selfish of me
I can’t help it
Things moved too fast
Memories choke me
They stain my pillow
Remember how we used to be?
Tracing tear stains
Stand in the rain to hide the pain
Are my apologies enough?
Never thought I’d leave
Flooded with emotion
Yesterday I tried to see the point in staying
Blurry vision
Thoughts too far gone
This has gone far enough
As bad as I want you to be here with me
It’s best to leave you behind
Or did you let me go?
Time was on our side
Would you believe that I love you?
Despite my actions
Believe me its true
I write these words
Instead of reaching for you at night
It’s the fact that I thought I was holding you back
I just needed to disappear
My dreams cry for you
If I could turn it back
I wouldn’t know you
I would have never whispered my name
Save you the shame
Prevent the hurt
I’m sorry but I had to leave
Can’t say I’ll come back
I know its selfish of me

Giving The Best


In the morning
No feather light kiss to your cheek
We don’t have sweet goodbyes
No whispers about our shared pleasures
No breaths wasted
No time to speak
How many times have we said we’re done?
I lost count after one
The first time was believable
Second time not so much
Are we over us?
Us as in the random hook-ups
Drunk nights I’ll send that sooooooooooo txt
You know I just want to fuck
Door unlocked
Find my way and we do us
We never bothered to know each other
After the fucking it could have been something
We’ve gotten to the point where we don’t even like each other
Or is that a part of the game?
Why do I let you get under my skin?
Talk shit to make the sex better?
These are the thougts I gather as we take yet another “break”
Then I’m back at your door
We fuck
Take leave until we get drunk and lust kicks in
To say we’ve shared the deepest parts of ourselves with one another
Pass by on the street and we don’t even speak
Our eyes never meet
Yet I end up back in your bed
Hands gripping the hair on your head
Kissing your chest
You bite my lips my neck
I guess we’ve found what we like best about each other
No words just moans
Your sheets wet with our sweat
As we give our best

Done


I always knew we were on different levels
Things seem mutual to you
I was always a step ahead
A little bit deeper
Thinking of you first
Trying my best to keep you safe
Never wanting to see you hurt
Tonight I feel so different
I always cared too much
Tables turned
Like you I’m starting to not give a fuck
Can’t rely on you when times get tough
There’s no one but me to hold onto
The only one I can trust
I won’t make a fuss
I know you’re not clutch
I’m at the bottom of your list
Random bitches come before me
When I needed you most you ignored me
Like my life and downfalls were boring
You won’t ever support me
So how can you even say you love me?
Who were you fooling?
Talking bullshit as usual that’s all you’re doing
This shit is getting old
Take your shit and hit the door
When you needed me I was always there
Never again
Grab your shit
Take it all I don’t fucking care
Dont take my keys not even the spare

Torture Chamber


I was naive
Caught in a web
A bed
Egyptian cotton sheets of deceit
Walls caving in
Cant escape these feelings
I should have known I was used for amusement
The way you seduce Im your prisoner
Searching for an escape
My disease
Cancer
Theres no cure for you
Im about to break
Addicted to your allure
Getting nothing in return
How did I get here
What did I do to deserve this pain
This burn
Third degree
I need to get away
You always call me back
When something's bad for you
You cant
You wont let go
What do you do
Ive been devoured completely
Ive lost control I hate to show you your power over me
Cant see thru the smoke
Your love was all an illusion
I cant stop this ache
Every step leads to another mistake
Every breath smothers me
Inside Im screaming
Begging
Pleading
My heart is my enemy
Every beat reminds me of you
Im feigning for you
Yearning for more
Every step leads me to your door

Desire


Full of wonder
Taking me away
Running in circles
I’m blinded
Trying it just feels like
I’m dying
Backing away slowly
Needs and wants so confused It’s bad
I’ll forget everything I believe
Just to stay present
I’m afraid you’ll forget about me
Let me fade away
Become a distant memory
This burning desire
Setting a pleasurable fire to me
The smoke that fills me
The more I inhale you
It’s threatening
Smothering
This will break me
End me Bring me to my knees
On the edge
I should jump before your flames engulf me
Gasoline tears stain my cheeks
I’ll end up dying
How can this be?
How did I get here?
Your heat consumes me
Steady not breathing
Silently screaming I have to have you now
Without a word I'll give in
Finally I’m yours

My Love


Indescribable
I’ll take the time
Find the words to define
Metaphorically speaking It’s the tears a cloud cries
While the sun shines
Bitter sweet Sweet?
I’m guessing it could be
Honey from a hive occupied by one thousand bees
Take as much as you please
If you flee it will sting
The pain of this love is oh so refreshing
Like morning dew It’s sticky sometimes messy
Like juices from a melon that drip down your chin
Or like playing in the rain
An enjoyable cleansing to wash away the past pain
A dozen roses that won’t die
A scent so amazing its hard to describe
Eighth wonder of the world
The look on a fathers face the first time he sees his baby girl
From her first step
To the first date
Her wedding day
The moment he gives her away
Unconditional
What more can I say?
More precious than a diamond
Priceless
No I won’t continue
Let’s take a lifetime
I’d rather show you than preach to you

Poison



Shooting up
Sweet nectar in your veins
Sweet pleasure
Sweet pain
For a moment
Going numb
Novacane
Indulging
Drugs taking you higher
It’s a pity
Can’t function without this rush
Spirit is crying
Poison feels good for only so long before you realize youre dying
Longing for the next fix
Searching for someone to scratch your itch
So naive
Settling for whatever you can get
Selling yourself short
Taking whoever wants to please If they can take you there
Youre with it
Addicted
Admit it
Pipe is looking empty
Tried 12 steps
Feet carry you back to the one who gets it wet
The one who never rejects
Knows what you want and never objects
A dealer
Drugs are the best
Accepting neglect disrespect
Just for a fix
Poison
Sex
Killing softly
Sexual OD
The sweetest most pleasurable death