Wednesday, October 26, 2011

5'3

WTF is wrong with me
WTF
WHAT THE FUCK
I feel sick
I'm sick
I'm twisted
Slightly masochistic
Satisfaction
Degradation
Hurting myself with hesitation
It's all so wrong
Who cares
For a while it feels right
Then I get caught up
Find myself drowning
In a bottle of brown tears
Pain on the rocks
Confronting fears
Running back to lonely
Blaming
Everyone but... hmph
Me
I'm the one harming me
Fuck it
I'm sadistic
Like I said
I'm twisted
Crazy
Psychotic
For a while I don't mind stopping
Then the urge comes back
I start feigning
For that pain again
That hate
The arguing
With myself
I'll take that painful pleasure
Before I'll be alone and well
I'll be a masochistic monster
I'll live in hell